I've learned..

Jumpa ini di ragam dunia.. rasa menarik.. jadi mahu berkongsi..

Here it goes..


I've learned that you cannot make someone love you,

all you can do is be someone who can be loved,

the rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much i care,

some people just don't care back,

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust,

and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that it's not what you have in life

but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned that you can get by on charm about fifteen minutes,

after that,you'd better know something.



I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself

to the best others can do,

but to the best you can do.

I've learned that it's not what happens to people,

it's what they do about it.

I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it,

there are always two sides.

I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words,

it may be the last time you'll see them.

I've learned that you can keep going

long after you think you can't.



I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done,

when it needs to be done,

regardless of the consequences,

I've learned that there are people who love you dearly,

but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that sometimes when i'm angry i have the right to be angry,

but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance,

same goes for true love.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,

doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.



I've learned that no matter how good a friend is,

they're going to hurt you every once in a while

and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others,

sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken.

the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,

but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that just because two people argue,it doesn't mean that they don't love each other,

and just because they don't argue,it doesn't mean they do.



I've learned that sometimes you have to put individual

ahead of their actions.

I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing

and see something totally different.

I've learned that no matter the consequences,

those who are honest with themselves get farther in life.

I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours

by people who don't even know you.

I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give,

when a friend cries to you,

you will find the strength to help.



I've learned that writing,

as well as talking,

can ease emotional pains.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life

are taken too soon.

Ive learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice

and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.

I've learned to love,

and be love..

** Entry Merapik Alert **

Dah lewat ni.. tapi cam.. entah. Xrasa nk tido lagi. Klu nk pun xleh nk tido lagi sb baju belum gosok lagi.

Hm, perasaan adalah sayu sb bru je layan WGM. Ttba je rasa cam sedih sb tgk org bahagia. Sedih bukan sb jeles. Sedih sb diri sendiri xmampu nk bahagia. Hanya mampu menumpang sisa2 kasih.

Ttba je teringat statement Ikmal,' Suka sgt tgk benda2 camtu. Tau x benda tu semua rekaan. Jgn expect saya buat camtu'. Haish.. Sedih.

Hah! Iklan sat.. saya belum pernah cerita lagi. Dulu dulu dulu dulu.. ada sorang apek cina ni.. dia tegurkan tahi lalat kt pipi saya. Exactly bawah mata kiri saya. Dia kata xbagus. Selalu nangis. But being typical me, I take it for granted. I live life to the fullest. Heh. But then, dah tua2 ni..

Well.. Mungkin kebetulan.

Haish..

Sekarang ni, sesambil mengarang ayat ni.. Saya tgh layan my fav sad songs.. My Heart is cursing you & Without word - OST You're Beautiful.. Have you ever by Brandy.. Foolish Games by Jewel.. Hahahah.. elok sgtlah.. Feeling tgh sedih.. G dengar lagu sedih lagi.. bagus sgtlah tu..

Haish..

Back to my sedih mode. Hm.. Tau x sekarang ni saya tgh menumpang kasih kt seseorg?.. Hahaha.. xtau,kan? Hm.. Ni nk bagitaulah ni.. Dia tu adalah seseorg yg saya suka dulu. Tapi dia xsuka kt saya. Tapi entah knp, saya xboleh nk lupakan dia. Padahal xdepun bercinta apa pun. So, sepatutnya xdelah apa2 perasaan nk sedih ke apa? Tapi.. Entah. Camne ek nk explain?.. Dia kata dia xsuka saya, tapi.. at the same time, he's flirting with me. Macam memberi harapan disitu. Gitu.

Dia suka ke? x ke? klu ya, patutlah dia usik2 aku camtu? tapi dia kata xsuka aku. tapi kenapa dia bagi perhatian kt aku camtu? So, ada kekeliruan disitu.

Benda tu berterusan. Smpilah dia dismiss awal. hm.. dah xberjumpa dia lagi dah. Tapi, perasaan tu masih ada. Pelik,kan?.. Xbercinta. Xbercakap. Tapi boleh ada perasaan yg kuat camtu. Mungkinkah sebab itu cinta pertama saya??? Adakah? Apakah? bagaimanakah? kenapakah? siapakah? Hm..Oh!

12 tahun berlalu. Ttba je dia muncul! Jumpa dia dia facebook. Ttba je memori lama berpusu2 bermain di fikiran. Ttba je perasaan tu datang balik. haish.

Saya cuba memulakan bicara. Dingin. Saya abaikan sb mg itu sifatnya. Dingin. Mungkin juga disebabkan statusnya kini berubah. he's TAKEN! tapi, saya nekad untuk tahu kenapa dia buat saya macam tu 12 tahun yg lalu. Mesti!

Saya buat xtau saja bila jawapannya masih lagi seperti endah xendah. Tapi bila dicuba 2-3kali, reaksi masih sama. Saya betul2 terasa hati. Dia betul2 xsukakan saya. Jadi saya ambil keputusan utk tidak lagi mencuba.  Biarlah dia sorang je yg tahun apa yg terjadi 12 tahun yg lalu.

Tapi, entah.. ttba je satu hari dia ym saya. walaupun masih sakit hati. saya ttp layan dia dengan baik.

Dari hari ke hari, kami jadi rapat. bukan sahaja ber'ym' malahan bertelefon. Bayangkanlah. Dia di utara, saya di lembah klang. tapi itu seolah2 tidak menjadi masalah. Kami berbual bermacam2 topik. Adakalanya mengada2.. adakalanya serius.. dan ada juga bermanja2.. dan termasuklah persoalan yg selama ini tersimpan di hati saya. dan jawapannya.. kerana telah berpunya jadi tidak dapat menerima hati saya.. meskipun dia juga turut menaruh hati kepada saya.. apakah?? benar atau tidak. itu xpenting. yg penting. itu adalah jawapan yg saya nk dengar. buat masa ini. Heh!

Dan xterduga.. pada satu hari katanya dia mahu ke Lembah Klang. Ada kursus katanya. sesambil tu, dia nk jumpa saya.

APAKAHHHHH?????!!!!

Mana boleh! Saya bukan lagi seperti dulu. Badan sudah sebesar pokok baobab di Afrika. Muka sudah tidak seayu Ayu Raudah. Mana bisaaaaa imej ayu yg disimpan slma in musnah.....! Oh! Tidak!

Saya cuba menolak utk berjumpa. Tapi akhirnya mengalah. Memikirkan. Dia kan sudah berpunya. Xkan lah mau terjatuh hati dengan saya lagi? Pedulilah jika dia menganggap saya huduh. yang penting, saya mahu berjumpa dengan kawan lama saya.. Konon! hahaha..

Saya tabahkan hati. Berjumpa pada waktu yg ditetapkan. Ah! jantung berdegup laju saat pertama bertemu. Rasa cam nk lari. Balik rumah. Tambahan melihat reaksinya yg betul2 xmenduga saya sedemikian rupa. Hodoh betul saya di matanya. Hai, apalah yg sudah saya lakukan ni.. Menempah malu sendiri.

Tapi nk buat macamana. Terlajak perahu boleh diundur.. Terlajak perbuatan.. Haish..

Aktiviti dimulakan dengan mengisi perut dulu. Saya akan membawa dia ke kawasan yg lebih dikenali saya. Agaknya dia terperasan saya kekok. sepanjang masa, dia lebih banyak bercakap dari saya. mg sudah menjadi lumrah. saya agak pendiam bila bersama org yg saya xbiasa. lagi2 kalau saya dah terberkenan dengan org tu. Ah. Otot mulut saya turut nervous. Hahahaha..

Keadaan menjadi lebih lancar masa karok time. Hehehe.. Masa ni adalah flirting2 sket.. Huhuhu..

Selesai karok, hari pun dah lewat. Tidak lagi dapat kemana2. lalu pulang dengan hati berbunga.

Keesokkan harinya, tidak dapat bersama kerana dia mahu bersama kawan2nya. Oh, hancur harapan. Merajuk sendirian. Kerana being typical man, dia tidak mengetahui jika tidak diberitahu. Oh, mengapakah? Memujuk diri, dia milik org.. Biarkan saja. Oh, abaikan.

The following day. Menerima pesanan ringkas darinya. Jumaat sudah mahu pulang. Mahukah menghabiskan masa bersama sebelum berangkat? Sudah tentu mahu. Jadi kami bertemu lagi. Kali ini tidak kemana2 yg jauh. Oleh itu ke bandar kecil berdekatan tempatnya.

Kali ini kami lebih mesra. Tapi dalam hati saya sering kali mengingatkan diri saya.. milik org.. milik org.. ah.. mengapakah harus begitu..

selesai mkn hidangan kegemaran saya.. menemannya ke pasaraya berdekatan membeli buah tangan utk kasih hatinya. Bagaikan ditusuk sembilu. Pada waktu itu juga saya tersedar. Aku hanya menumpang kasih. Bukan itu sahaja.. acapkali dia mengingatkan dia sudah berpunya.. dan terkadang berbicara juga terselit kisah kesayangannya.. Oh, apakah? Pedih sungguh hati ini. Bodoh benar rasanya..

Meski bnyk disiarkan dikaca televisyen. Aku masih lagi dungu. Bukankah mereka2 ini akan pulang ke pangkuan yg tersayang. Aku ini hanya melukut. yang hanya duduk tepian gantang. Sedarlah diri........................................................................................................................................................ Mengharap sisa kasih.......................................................................................................................

Haish.. Bilalah dapat kasih sendiri..

Haish...

Dooh..

Xtaulah apa kejadahnya.. dah terberkenan ngan kumpulan ni.. nama dia SHINEE.. Anak2 ikan ni.. jgn tau..

Yang paling digemari adalah si Minho.. sb muka dia lain sket klu nk compare dengan yg lain2.. pastu dia cam pendiam.. dan berperangai pelik.. slow mo.. Hmm.. tapi klu dah suka tu.. apa2 pun boleh lah.. terima je dengan hati terbuka.. uuuuhuhuhuh..

yang buat terberkenan dengan dorang ni sb tgk MV ni lah.. bila tgk rasa cam nk nari sama pulak.. syok ooo..   Sl tgk kumpulan2 korea ni, klu part dance mg superb lah.. dorang berlatih bersungguh2.. video clip dorang mg marvellous semuanya..   Alahai.. apolah kiut sgt muko eh..

Hah!! lagi satu sb apa suka kt dorang ni.. sb masing2 bersopan yo.. almaklumlah.. anak ikan.. mudo2 laie.. kena sebatan ni klu buat main2.. bahaya..

dan lagi satu.. yg syoknya artis2 korea ni.. bukan kumpulan ni je.. yang lain2 pun.. dah jadi satu budaya bagi dorang.. Xkiralah ko stylo camne ke? popular smpi ke langit ke-7 ke.. klu dengan senior, dorang suspect habis! xdenya dorang nk kurang ajar dengan senior.. pastu kelakar sb klu ko terkenal dengan barannya.. dengan ego nya.. pastu bila ngan senior.. terkulat2.. hahaha.. mg lawak..

Hm.. nk cite apa lagi? entah. habis sini jelah..

Mg habit xreti nk buat ending. dulu BM dapat 3 je.. ah!

I'm just plain tired..

I just don't understand.. Why I loved to let myself hurt over and over again? Why I always put myself at the lowest2lowest ever point over love? Why am I so stupid? When am I going to wake up?

By Jewel - Foolish Games


You took your coat off and stood in the rain,
You're always crazy like that.
And I watched from my window,
Always felt I was outside looking in on you.

You're always the mysterious one with
Dark eyes and careless hair,
You were fashionably sensitive
But too cool to care.

You stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
Besides some comment on the weather.

[Pre-Chorus 1]
Well in case you failed to notice,
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees, and...

[Chorus]
These foolish games are tearing me apart,
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.
You're breaking my heart.

You're always brilliant in the morning,
Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee.

Your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you.
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar.

You'd teach me of honest things,
Things that were daring, things that were clean.
Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean.

I hid my soiled hands behind my back.
Somewhere along the line, I must've gone
Off track with you.

[Pre-Chorus 2]
Well, excuse me, guess I've mistaken you for somebody else,
Somebody who gave a damn,
Somebody more like myself.

[Chorus]
You took your coat off,
Stood in the rain,
You're always crazy like that.


credit to elyrics

eh, ttba je teringat..

ada satu lagu yg sesuai utk keadaan saya sekarang.. it's by Jewel.. tittled ' Near You Always '..

To that someone.. I know you read my blog sometimes.. and this is for you.. hope you enjoy it.. I've put the lyric at the bottom as well so u could understand it better..

oh, btw.. plse ignore the flower parts.. Plse do bring me ' RED ROSES ' everytime we meet.. For that, plse accept my gratitute in advance.. Hahahahah..

For the video, credit to JewelVid


and as the lyrics.. psle credit to lyricsfreak

Please don't say I love you.. Those words touch me much too deeply and they make my core tremble.. Don't think you realize the effect you have over me.. Please don't look at me like that.. It just makes me want to make you near me always.. Please don't kiss me so sweet.. It makes me crave a thousand kisses to follow and please don't touch me like that.. Makes every other embrace seem pale and shallow and please don't come so close.. It just makes me want to make you near me always.. Please don't bring me flowers.. They only whisper the sweet things you'd say.. Don't try to understand me.. Your hands already know too much anyway ( apakah??? ).. It just makes me want to make you near me always and when you look in my eyes.. Please know my heart is in your hands.. It's nothing that I understand, but when in your arms.. You have complete power over me.. So be gentle if you please, 'cause.. Your hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teeth and it makes me want to make you near me always.. Your hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teeth and it makes me want to make you near me always.. I want to be near you always.. I want to be near you always.. I want to be near you always..

I've been watching this korean drama..

It's called You're Beautiful.. Best cite dia. Feeling ah tgk.. Suka lagu dia ni.. pastu biasalah.. ter-relate ke diri sendiri pulak.. almaklumlah.. loser,kan?

So, hopefully you guys will enjoy it as much as i do..

Credit to seyerneelie14

Rasanya..

Honeymoon period dah habis dah.. sb masalah datang bertimpa2 ni..

hai.. tadi pun balik pukul 8.. itupun keja xhabis lagi tu.. terpaksa jugak balik sb dah tinggal sorang.. memula tu rilek gak.. tapi bangla yg cuci2 lantai kt luar asyik dok usha2.. xdelah nk tuduh dia ada niat xbaik.. tapi nk buat keja pun xsenanglah org asyik pandang2.. Sengal lah ko Shah Rukh.!!! Nak buat keja buat2lah.. yg menyebok pasal org tu kenapa??!! Cis!

Sb stayed back ni pun sb org account complaint yg corporate kteorg complaint, bnyk invoice xberhantar.. xberupdate.. pastu ada harga ticket lari pulak.. entah camne buleh lari pun xtau.. pastu ada sorang umat ni.. nk pegi nya tgh bulan... tapi seeeeeeebok jugaklah nk buat booking dan dan tu jugak.. Klu 2-3minit settle xpe.. ini.. xretinyalah nk decide.. membuang masa betul!!! Itu yang invoice terbiar je..

Dah tu nk buat camno???.. Mg gila xsempat nk buat.. Dengan menangkat tepon dah rupa receptionist dah.. Betul.. skang ni xde de nk ber-fb bagai.. mg xdo.. cumo.. ada lah .. ber-ym.. sikit.. sikit yo.. ni pekerja berdedikasi ni.. jgn xtau.. tapi xdo gak maso nk buek.. dah tu camno?

Mg lah ada mintak tolong bebudak practical.. Ada.. tapi.. hmm... hmm.. ????.. mg sedikit sebanyak.. ada jugak membantu.. bukan xde langsung.. ada.. tapi... mmmm... mmm..... dorang masih perlu guidance.. masih perlu tgk2kan.. hm.. xpelah.. pasal tu kite cite lain kali lah ek?..

Dah tu.. camne ni.. stresslah rasa.. Rasa nk tukar keja pun ada.. Arrrggghhhh!!!!!

Tapi.. bila balik rumah.. nasib baik ada Jang Geun Suk.. Buah hati pengarang jantung.. Sejuk gak hati menengoknya..

~ haaaaaaaih comel sungguh lah aihhhh ~

p/s: mak.. perkenalkan.. bakal menantu mak yang terbaru.. comel,kan???

~ haihhh~